It’s a good thing that I have a choice over how I spend my time, and that I am lucky enough to have vacation time and good friends and family to plan things with. Then, I just started to feel like it was all pointless. Some kind of fluffy wildflowers along the path were sending seed puffs waving in the wind and flying up into the sun. The words came to my mind, “All we have is Presence,” meaning, the only thing that matters is right now. I’d love to take him on a bunch of weekend trips and a road trip out west. I’ll explain plenty more about him in future posts. Over text messages, I awkwardly informed him that he was a true rebound. On the other hand, I’ve always handled this kind of planning, and I don’t want to interact with the ex any more than I have to.
It’s a tough world out there, and if there’s something that brings you comfort and hurts no one, by all means, you do You! He popped up beside me and we had fun like we’d never had before. (I’d show the pics to you, but then I’d have to kill you :-))We took off and he showed off his skills for a while. As I observed him in his element, I felt enchanted.
Later, I went up to the front of the crowd to enjoy the last band. He said something to me along the lines of “My friend wanted to know who I was flirting with and I was like: ‘Oh, that’s just Mama Bear’ and she was like, ‘THAT’S Mama Bear? Driving to the small airport, we conversed about passionate living and friendship. His favorite, he edited “for your grandchildren” he said.
Thinking that Tim might be sad if both parents weren’t there, I countered that maybe we should do it all together and invite some other relatives.
Immediately I felt myself recoil from my own suggestion.
While I want to recount dates like this to each of my friends and family, they don’t want to hear it. This dream date story involves ‘Adonis’ (at least that’s what I’ll call him).